Oh how I wish you was here. Your crazy words of wisdom sometimes come to mind. And right now i could use some more on what to do and how to handle my problems. January 4th 2014 was one of the worst days of my life. That day God called you home and I lost not just my daddy but my best friend my hero. I know i wasn't always the best daughter and that probably didn't help at all either. And I can't give you father of the year reward because you wasn't always the best. But what I can say is. You was always there. It didn't matter how far i was from home if I called you was there. Nothing kept you from coming to my rescue. I always ran from my problems and I finally got tired of running and I started to face them. That was one of the hardest times of my life. You always told me "Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game" Daddy even thou you only came to a handful of my softball games. I still listened even thou I had my head phones in doesn't mean there was always music playing. You always said life's to short to give up and quit. Well your right. I'm not giving up. I'm doing everything I possibly can to make it right now. Depression has really gotten the best of me. And Satan is trying to win. Im sorry for all the heart ache I put in your life I'm sorry for all the times I disappointed you and also when I never listened. Your one hell of a dad for not picking up a belt and beating sense into me. Even thou that's really what I needed. I'm doing my best at this crazy thing called life. I just need you to place your hands on my shoulders and guide me just a little bit farther because daddy your leading me.